Of all the foolish things to do
I became a connoisseur of great excuse
And my pessimistic past the blame
Will never make this go away
Of all the foolish things I’ve said
That keep me sleepy almost dead
I’m sorry if I’ve let you down
My eyes were closed, they’re open now
I’m waking up
I am waking up
I am waking up
I awake
And this has all been said before
I’ve listened but then I ignored
My ears grew deaf
My head gave up
The junkie knows not when to stop
Of all the foolish alibis
The constipated push for why
I’ve had a blanket pulled over my eyes
Oh hush now baby don’t you cry
I’m waking up
I am waking up
I am waking up
I’m awake
Coming *repeat chorus
I’m ready *repeat chorus
Dada da da da daaa

(lyrics transcribed for academic purposes only)

if you’re trying to seek a guess as to the meaning or the story behind the song’s lyrics, you might appreciate being directed to this interview damien rice did where he opened up about his relationship with lisa hannigan.

The song is featured on the album Gasoline Rainbows which includes songs by LCD Soundsystem, Phoenix, Silversun Pickups, Vampire Weekend, Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros as well as previously unreleased tracks by Rice, Amy Kuney and City and Colour. It will be available exclusively as a download on November 30 through Roark Records. Proceeds from the sales will benefit communities affected by the Gulf of Mexico oilspill.

More on the album here.

i am sitting in what has become “my seat” in a coffee place, plugged in to hip-hop and music that will drown out the chatter, feeling neither bitter nor lost nor inebriated. this moment of clarity is a rarity in itself.

it may be abit premature, but i seem to have reached a new phase in this rewritten roadmap my life has become. premature, i can’t stress this word enough, but life moves fast for me, and it seems it will only move faster in the coming weeks.

mini-trips, many drinks, weddings and departures.

india: calcutta, dehli, dharamsala. in the blur of it all, i will see a world wonder, one of my closest friends get married (again!), christmas amongst hindus, the dalai lama (fingers crossed!), the end of a ___ year and the beginning of a new one.

i’m not ready to account for my customary bullet point list of achievements/reflections for 2010 but i’d like to list out a couple of things i’d like to see in phase 2:

1. write more.
2. sing more.
3. spoil joel more, he’s going past middle age and it’s been a tough year for him too…
4. compile, sort, arrange, organise, recycle, discard where appropriate.
5. bring out the best in loved ones.

some of the things i’d like to bring forward from phase 1 into phase 2 include:

- continue meeting and befriending interesting positive “real” people
- continue getting out of my comfort zone every opportunity i get
- continue being more independent; emotionally, socially etc.
- continue sharing; thoughts, music, love, ideas, information